activation
For the past few weeks I have been feeling very activated… and I know this because of some tell-tale signs:
- clenched jaw at night
- tight neck and shoulders
- reactive behavior towards my children
- defensive behavior towards my husband
- easily triggered, angry, tearful
- underlying feelings of wanting to retreat and flee
All signs of an overstimulated nervous system.
Over the past few years I have healed deeper levels within my life, and because of this I have built much bigger capacity.
And somewhere along the line, I think I translated all of my healing and expansion into thinking that I can take on each and every load that comes my way.
From big to small. Joyous and heartbreaking, I’ve been tethered to the thought:
“I can take this on. I can hold this.”
But sometimes we hold too much.
Sometimes we need to put something down. Sometimes we need to make more room.
And more often than not, we need more help than we are getting.
A DEEP lesson that has come through this last month for me is just this- that I need more help.
I have built more capacity, yes. I have grown, yes. And because of this growth, I need more help… not less.
There are layers here for sure.
Maladaptive behaviors of perfectionism that don’t readily seek or accept help…
Feelings that I still need to be in control or micro-manage those that do help me…
So while I have a deep understanding of our nervous systems and the wisdom of our bodies, I feel it’s really important to share that I too am on the path of learning.
I have deeply recognized that with a full and ever-expanding private practice… I need more help around the home and with our kiddos.
And I am proud to share with you, that I have asked for and received it.
Already, I can feel that it is creating more space in my life.
I imagine I am not alone in the experiences of higher activation.
And I know I am not alone in the feelings of taking so much on… taking it ALL on…
Which is why I wanted to end with a simple share.
Click the link below for a simple and reflective tool about resourcing.
It even includes some of my own practices that I find centering.
xo
